I’ve thought about all the guys I’ve truly liked. It started with Jake Lenhart, I liked his sense of humor, his childness, the fact that he always wanted to be around me. Well until the day I finally pushed him to his limits and he stopped caring. Then came along Tommy, he was sweet, shy, and different from Jake. He wasn’t the jealous type and he stuck up for me, and the same as Jake, he always wanted to be around me. Until the day I finally pushed him away too. But guess who was there for me when Tommy was gone, that’s right, Jake. But I didn’t learn from the past two times, just like that he was gone. After that I was stuck on him for ever, but I thought I changed and that’s when I met Jake Hammel. He was so damn good looking, he was a sweet talker, not shy, and completely different. Execept for the fact that I also found some way to push him away, but that’s okay. I thank god I pushed him away. He’s the reason I lost the kid I liked even more than Jake Lenhart. His name was Evan. I screwed up just like I did all the other times. I can’t explain this kid, he was so my type, we were soo alike. But he’s gone with the wind just like every other guy. So I guess I can’t forget Donny. No one knows what went on between me and Don Don, I don’t even know what it was. Did I like him way too much to admitt? Was I afraid to mess up what we had by telling him my feelings? I was afraid of driving him away, but by being afraid he left. I missed a really good opportunity. But if Donny was still around I wouldn’t be where I was right now. I wouldn’t be happy or content. With my current relationship I’m just going with it. I’m being honest and not letting myself feel any “what if” I did this or did that. I’m not going to regret any of this. I’m happy with the way he treats me and how he’s so sweet. He has a quality from each one of these “relationships” I’ve described just meshed into one. Will I mess this up? Will I drive him away? Probably, but I’m going to fight my hardest not to.